Saturday, February 20, 2010

Confronting doubt

"In my soul, I can't you how dark it is... I feel like refusing God."

"I am told God lives in me -- and yet the reality of darkness and coldness and emptiness is so great that nothing touches my soul"

Not two quotes that you would associate with Mother Teresa. But she honestly shared these feelings in her personal journals.

My journey in God has taken me sometimes to these dark places of doubt and despondency. Today they are much rarer but only because I was prepared to tackle my doubt. I fought with myself and searched for God and when I thought he was there I fought with Him as well.

Today I am thankful for my bouts of doubt and emptiness because they help me to trust and believe even in the darkness.

But even today my prayer is taken from scripture. "Lord I believe, help my unbelief."


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